Pain, Emotions, Irritation…turn it back to Joy, spIrit-filled, set FreE…..We Love You!!!

normally, or rather recently, i tend to hold back topics abt serious emotions…with the risk of weird stalkers that try to over-understand me…

but this time…it can’t be restrain…it’s dying to come out n yet it can’t becos my dad’s home…he will be wondering wat in the world is wrong with me…

perhaps it is sthg wrong with me…wrong in the sense tat people’s problems become mine…and as i strive to help a problem that is not mine…i stress myself…

as i type this entry…i can feel the water tat is coming to my eyes n flowing into my heart…i’ve never felt so painful b4…perhaps i never had similar situations…but it hurts!…it really hurts!…

perhaps i’ve cried over silly things like getting afraid to work or no frens…but this is much worse…n it isn’t silly…

Jesus…all your promises…I want to see them happen…all the promises of peace…of joy…no loneliness…no pain…show me Lord…Save Lord…

she’s in pain…she’s in desperation…she is doing silly n ridiculous things…Lord I know You know her heart…replace wat is lacking…replace with love, assurance, Your spirit, Your presence…

I’m just a mere girl…Man as some may call it…but wat can i do…she won’t listen…she brushes it off…would she have known those tears tat are welling up in me…in us…rite now…would she noe tat so many ppl still love her…would she even realise it…

To the world: Wat have u done with her!…why have u dragged her down…Get ur FILTHY hands off of her…off her mind…off her spirit…DON’T drag her down with you

Oh Lord, set her free…break the spell…I plead with You Father…have mercy, have mercy!…God be her Solution!