Pls turn on ur wireless connection…

too bad this site cannot do voices…u should hear the way the singlish technician spoke to me on how to fix up my failing wireless…no more failing now…excellent service i would say… 

tutorials started tis week…so far i’m left with experiencing my TC class…overall, i figured tat my tutors don’t like late-comers…though sometimes it’s hard not to be late…they should have built the arts n science facs nearer to each other…but i’m learning quite a lot in my computing class…at least now i noe how to buy a pc properly without excessive stuff u don’t need…TA class was fun since i hv a funny sensei…Katou sensei is very expressive n she is not embarrassed by the non-sense or funny actions she does…my kind of sensei …but TB class is a bit stressful…Nagami sensei is always smiling, it’s hard to tell wat he really feels abt tings…but at least he encouraged us to talk alot more…hmmm….i guess there are pros n cons…TC class, the sensei is still a mystery…but i’m guessing Izumi sensei…n i really hope to either get Katou or Izumi sensei…onegai, kamisama XD!!!

other than tat…project deadline have not come in yet…but i will prob be overloaded by 2nd last week of Sep…i don’t noe if it is coincidence but all projects deadline tend to be on the same day or same week…hmm…

anw…i just thought i update my blog b4 cobwebs start growing all over…i like spiders, but not the insects they eat….

Milk is the most stable emulsion in the world…

…it’s god’s gift…

ok…i decided to scrap the project entry becos it proved no pt…or rather…i simply had sch re-open blues…besides…i hv a more impt issue i want to talk abt…

now i hv to very careful here…cos i’m stepping on potential GTNs here (sorry if u don’t now wat GTNs are but i tink u can guess it)…n i’m not abt to risk an edn provided by God to be wasted like tat…

we had a talk with a public-caring spokesperson last nite…it was organised very kindly by the FOMs (not their real name)…so were the DODs n SONs were invited (not their real name too)…based on maintaining a gd relationship with the FOMs as well as partially being interested in the sophisticated presence of our spokesperson…many of us attended…despite it was a drag to go home after…the buses onli came in 30min intervals…talk abt sardines in a can…thnk god they are dead when they go into the can…(T_T)

ok…naturally, humans sense of attn can last for 2 hrs at most…however, due to our studies n workload, many of us grew tired (but still paying attn) even before the spokeperson completed his 1-hr speech…

happened tat i noticed during the speech tat the spokesperson had not mention our grp in the midst of his presentation, which was humorous but yet sad at times…i figured tat he didn’t had athg to say abt us, so i left it there…

there was a Q n A after the speech, in which most of the FOMs were excited of…by the last 15 mins…one brave soul in our grp rose n walked over to the nearest mike, bracing himself to ask abt the monopolised rights in a local context…

we understood the reason behind which the spokesperson gave abt not hving monopolised rights…after all, everyone has different views…however, discrimination or bias can put tings off…

so to try n help u guys understand a bit more of the situation…even if perhaps the spokesperson was a little too blunt…here was the situation after he spoke the “last line”…

the FOMs were going, YEAH!!!!!

the GOPS were going, WAT THE?!

n the rest of the audience (i’m guessing) went, Darn, you blew it man!

so…by the time the spokesperson left the building…there were “sensations” flying all over the 2nd and 3rd lvl of the venue…n i finally understood y my grp was nvr mentioned…

on my way home, i thought abt the issue again n thought of how God would have wanted me to respond to a situation like tis…naturally, i wasn’t gonna fire my word-bullets like those intelligent ones sitting around the coffee shops all day becos i didn’t see the pt…neither will i do it as bluntly as tat of the spokesperson…

it has always been a common impression of our grp’s status in comparison to others…so fine, be it slightly lower, i’m pretty rational abt it…but wat abt our grp, our team?…the part tat confuses me is tat if u are part of a cooperation or organisation, do u stand up for it, or let others worry abt it?…

cos if it were a personal ting, i would prob say, ‘it’s ok, pride should not come into the pic, just let watever the person says pleases him”…(at tis pt, i also realised tat the spokesperson was not a Christian)…but his comment affected the whole grp of us…wat was the correct emotion tat i should express?…if i were to judge tat pride n human righteous were earthly tings?…

my ”supervisor” had responded quickly to the ans frm the spokesperson n all of us in the grp had received the email with regards to the issue…

i admire the way a letter can seem so formal n polite-sounding, n yet hide words between lines tat onli ppl of the correct talent-lvl can understand…it’s just like Cantonese to a person who doesn’t understand the dialect, it sounds all nice but they related to not-nice issues…it would be better if we could have done wat the Spanish did with every legend n murder case found in their country…sing abt it

honestly, when i step out to work…i just want to find sthg tat is stable n not too adventurous…i prefer workin backgrds n not the front lines…climbing too high can be rather disappointing…anw, i leave it to god…

btw…milk is one of the most stable emulsion in the world…becos it does not need any agent to help hold the contents of itself mixed together…it’s really god’s gift…

currently…my fren is regretting over the bar of choco… XD

Applying research skills…

i noe i mentioned tat i would talk abt my projects here…but i put it on hold for a bit of clarification…

apparently my previous entry seemed rather heated…without me knowing again (*sigh…i need to do some reflections)…so i feel i need to clarify Pt 12 frm the previous entry…n i will try to do it somewat scientifically…i think…hmm…

ok…assume tat the theory (A): of me talking alot n not listening to be possibly true…then we consider the evidence tat a blog abt me exists…

now…since it is my blog…it would mean tat:

   my blog = abt myself = me talking abt me n wat revolves around me ——(1)

since eqn (1) is a fact, it is therefore true…frm here, we can say tat:

   abt myself = abt others   …this eqn does not exist

therefore, me talking abt me = no one else is talking = I am talking all the time

since tis is an online blog where only written words are put in, no one is listening = i cannot listen to anyone

hence, we can conclude tat at my blog, i talk all the time (n alot) n not listening to others is true…which proves the assumption of theory (A) …-_-!!!

personally, i hope to clarify tat i do not agree with the assumption…cos in the case in which i was declared so was rather to my disadvantage…n there were many small factors involved tat if not considered properly…will escalate to new heights of…sthg lah…:D

anw…i’m not barring anyone from my blog…afterall it’s online anw…the whole world can see it if they want to…n i certainly don’t want to bar anyone cos it will further prove tat theory (A) is true if anyone does not come back to my blog becos of Pt 12… XD

I will ask for forgiveness n patience frm God becos of Pt 12…apparently pt 12 exposed me to see tings differently, i guess it’s gd to understand myself a bit more…oops…talked too much liao….lol XD….apologies to all if i seemed heated (maybe i was, maybe not, i can’t remember…hmm…anw…still apologies to all)

ok…next posting…project work…

Hopefully short n to the point…

tis will possibly be the shortest entry since my intro blog entry…every ting is in pt form cos i don’t really have the time to blabber out..

1. It’s onli the 2nd day of sch…but every of the 5 mods i take has projects.

2. In case u hv problem counting, tat’s 5 projects in total .

3. I still cannot understand guys.

4. Neither can guys understand me.

5. I know I shouldn’t be…but I feel like smashing a piece of chocolate…it’s the sugar tat is making me sick…

6. I love my ignite actors.

7. Pt 6 is rather weird in mist of all these.

8. So is Pt 7 n this pt.

9. My junior, PT, can make me happy.

10. But God does it better.

11. I will talk abt my projects in the next entry.

12. For all guys who tink i talk too much n don’t listen to u, u are hereby barred frm coming to my blog.

  

The power of the tongue…woah!!

the human tongue….6 inches long…kills a man 6 foot tall…wipes out a population 6 million or more…destroys 60-storey building floor by floor…breaks a girl’s heart in two…

Dear Mr Bobberson,

i’m blessed…i noe i m…n i noe tat it’s not possible for a problem-free life…but receiving tat one word frm u…though it may not be ur first time saying it…ur problem with her has nthg to do with me…though i noe i’m related…but i’m not ur middle man…i’m not at ur service…

u used the B word on me…though i noe not of it’s true meaning…but nthg good comes out of tat word…the word holds only hatred n pain…n of the devil’s lies…

how i wished i could treat as if u nvr existed…as if u nvr been in my life at all…how i hope for the day when ppl call for u by name…tat i’ll have the chance to say tat u no longer existed…tat u had passed on…

i noe the power of my tongue…decades of education had taught my tongue much more than it has my brain…my tongue has a life on its own…it curves n twists in ease as it releases out hurtful words into the world…

yet u noe not…tat nvr could i speak of the evil tat i intend to in the above paras…for reasons tat u hv yet to appreciate n understand…one reason is for who u r to me…the other, is my Master, who has taught me all things good n the need to keep my body clean n pure…becos my soul holds sthg more precious than earthly existence itself…

i thank you for my earlier years…n tat’s all i can do…a few yrs back, u seemingly grew dim in my life…i soon relied on others than on u…humans r practical…we do not rely on the useless…

in fact, u were nvr useless…ur hands were at ur service…ur feet were ready to take u there n beyond…yet u tied them together with rope…paced them onli within the remains of ur home…u struck fear into them such tat they could nvr initiate u to step beyond ur main door…u kept the door shut all the time…keeping out other hands who wanted to rescue urs…keeping out the voices tat call unto u to come out…

becos u cannot forget ur past…u sunk urself into deeper depths tat no man can pull u up frm…the ppl tat u manage to click with may not be as deep as where u r…but they r still standing a distance away frm u…maintaining tat distance such tat u can hear them but cannot touch them…

the deeper u sink, the hotter it get…it’s a basic geographical fact…but it’s also more than just tat…she n me had tried our best…but ur hatred for her has afflicted me more than once…it’s ur stupidity…it’s ur stubborness tat put urself in a trap…

i fear my day of death…i fear ur day of death…for i’m just a girl…like any other man, there is onli so much i can do…my Master is helping u…He is calling u…but if u refuse to respond to him, there is little to be done with u…

put down ur past, throw it away…grudges r worthless…they cannot save u…u said tat ur dad killed ur mom…but how much of it do u believe…or did u choose to believe so so tat it’ll ease ur heartbreak as long as the blame is on someone else…

resent me…hate me…blame me if u will…but this is my last letter to u…the moment i sign my name at the end of this letter…it’ll be ur last chance of ever seeing me or part of me again…i will repay u all tat i owe u…but even if my debts to u have been paid…ur debts with others nvr will if u r not willing to give in…

my Master is callin u each day…answer Him…or it’ll be too late

Once urs n nvr will be again,

Sally

……theatre maybe? …truth…nonsense…who noes?   ——-spys

Oh joyful joyful day…

i hv absolutely no idea but i’m extremely joyful today…maybe cos i visited my junior n helped with her chem…or joked with her sis…or went for bible study…or one of the uncles was funny…or my advisor disturbed me…or i got another junior to listen to me for the 1st time…i don’t noe…i’m just joyful…

at tis pt…i can feel my junior allocating all the credit to herself… -_-!!! …*sigh…yes, yes, almighty one, it was u who made me happy…some ppl…*sigh…

 ok..stop all the sighing cos i’m in a great mood…it’s kinda hard to come by..since sch is starting on mon…with me waking up at 6am than the usual 8am…but who cares abt tat…

anw…the bidding results came in just 50 mins ago…or abt there…i got my jap module (Praise the Lord)…but i didn’t get the r.health one…actually during the bidding process, the min. bid went beyond wat i could put in…so i switched it with computing…n i thk the Lord becos he allowed me to get the computing mod together with my friend…so not so lonely at least…so bidding is over….now, it’s balloting…

honestly…i hv no idea wat is the diff between bid n ballot…prob the spelling but tat does not clear any of the qns in me…all i noe is while balloting…no pts are involved…n it’s more of a ranked system…n it is onli for tutorials…i hv 4 tuts to ballot…but still, it’s as confusing as bidding though…but tat’s on next fri..so…till then

i just realised tat i hv nvr (nah) mentioned tis while everyone else has been…there’s a Planetshakers concert tomorrow…i’m too lazy to explain wat Planetshakers is…but u can run a search on Yahoo…n all will be revealed…i mean the band info…but i can tell u it’s basically a Christian rock band (apologies to all Planetshakers’ fans for such a simplified intro to them…but i didn’t see the pt to since u fans would hv talked abt them on ur sites)…

ok…tis does not mean tat i’m not excited abt it…I M…i always loved music…but somewat rock songs is my fav though i can listen n accept practically any form of music…(fyi, no, my mom did not play mozart to me when i was a baby)…so Planetshakers kinda works for me…n ‘m looking forward to it…i’m serial!!! XD

I feel so bad…so bad…

i’m rather introvert…either i imagine tat…or i’m really tat…it doesn’t apply to church cos i’m more opened there than any other outside area…

hmm…why i feel bad…becos i cannot make it to my senior-junior interaction…my poor junior…i know how it feels…i’ve been a junior myself…n i was rather upset tat i did not get to meet my senior…really wanted to talk with her n all…sad desu…n yes, at tis pt…i’m assuming my junior is a girl…

then again…ppl will prob tell me not to feel sad…cos my junior may not be as innocent or as nice as i expect her to be…so it’s still a mystery…n i do acknowledge tat i can get over-worrying at times…but i hope to have a much better junior than senior…God made tings so, so that they will be perfect with us …not tat i can see tat with my senior…but i figured there’s sthg to hope for between us…*smiles…hmm…i hope my junior is a Christian…

i then feel bad abt not being a good “elder” sis today…honestly, i have nvr (nah) been an elder sis…so i have no idea wat i need to do sometimes…which makes it awkward…it’s like in some cases…u need to act as the one I/C…then u realised tat u r not exactly these other ppl’s older siblings…so it’s like u wanna do tings ur way…but u’re restricted…or rather…regretful after doing sthg ur own way w/o considering the ppl with u…now tat..many ppl will say…is “selfishness”…darn…i’m so confused sometimes…

today’s skit prac…can be classified as “sian but fun”…sian for those who waited for their turn to act…fun becos there was a lot of non-sense going on in between the play…for all parents n church members who r worried tat we do not take our stuff seriously…rest assured tat these guys will be ready by 20 Aug…in fact, all we need now is just to get the guys to remember their lines n they will be ready to go Live…oops….said too much…but i can say today’s much better than last sun…

here’s a list of tings i learned today from the skit prac: (not using actual names here…but u can figure it out urself…)

1. BO is much heavier than he looks. (T_T)

2. 3 guys n 1 girl r not equipped to carry BO.

3. PT is getting tired of dying. She feels tat dying takes too much of her time.

4. In our opinion, AS might really need a mike.

5. JT finds it harder to snatch PT’s wallet while poking her with an umbrella.

6. BO likes putting leaves on his face like side-burns.

7. PJ n BO actually work well together. And I intend to make them work together next time.

8. Bollywood stars cannot work with Mediacorp actors.

9. ZC cannot locate the devil’s voice. And yes…he needs a mike too.

10. According to PT, SS can receive Golden Horse Award.

11. When SO acts fake, she really acts fake.

for more antics…tune in soon!!!

The battle begins…

do take note of the date n time tat i’m doing tis entry…to my peers, i noe many r going “so early for wat?!”…then i suggest u look at the title……n all NUS students go “Ohh….”

it’s official…i’m bidding…(sometimes i tink if onli i could be as excited for sch as for bidding…*sigh)…prayed before i turned on the pc…currently it seems ok…but i realised tat the rd lasts for 3 DAYS!!!…darn…previously it was atmost 2 days…*sigh…prob be doing regular checks on the sys later…*cry…i don’t wanna be stuck at the motherboard …

anw… i figured life is full of battles…not just with others…but with oneself as well…

yesterday’s skit prac was a bit messy…but i thank both the lord n the ppl who showed up for honoring god (p.s. to those who couldn’t turn up…i understand…thank u for trying to make the effort to come down)…n i realised tat some of them hv more talent then they tink they do…so although it was messy…n some ppl drove me the edge of nuttiness…i spotted some really neat stuff…yes, yes…i noe i’m weird…but like the Lord would say…”Don’t hide ur talents”…

i noe it’s not very right to do personal thnk yous…but i’m really blessed by Jo n Bryan…full of nonsense…barely had lines n yet they came…they really love god!…oh darn…now i wanna thnk the rest of the team tat turned out yesterday morning…love u guys…n yes, there is nthg u can do abt it…

however, at prac… i must say tat there is still tis small case of irritation in me…hv asked for patience so not mad anymore…but yesterday…i swore for the first 10 mins i could have grabbed “it” by the throat n shaking it like a box of cornflakes in which the last bits r stuck at the bottom of the box, saying “Wake up ur idea man! How old r u n u’re giving me tis nonsense?”…yup, but i refrained frm doing it…cos it’s just not right to…

so came the battle within me to control my anger…like the script…there were angels n devils flashing their opinions at me, each expecting me to take it’s advice…a series of bombardment (n i tink some of them banged onto each other)…causing a rather severe headache…but i’m all better now XD…

btw…to all who concern..i’m not depressed…nor angry…nor agitated…cos i tink i rubbed off some  joyfulness frm my advisor…so i smile more than i noe…i guess it’s a natural response…n i’m happy tat god gave me tis smile…even if it’s not cute or pretty or watever else ppl can classify of a smile….

oh yes…b4 i forget…must thnk my press too for the great cake he got for our advisor’s b-day…we had a dinner (with many a ppl) last nite with her…everyone seemed to had sthg to say…n my advisor thought she was leaving S’pore tomorrow …n it was great to sit at the same table with her…a lot of joyous laughters last nite…really thnk God for her…can’t believe wat we’ll be without her…anw, back to the press…i tink he must have got stressed over the selection of the cake (cos the world is full of them)…but he did a great job…both buying n personalising the cake…n it was delicious too…haha…

hmm….seems to me tat tis entry is pretty straight….hmm….no funny stuff…m i losing it?…my weird n funny yet non-commenting-able humor?

I forgot to mention…abt CSI

actually…after powerhse i realised tat i forgot to include some tings abt CSI…

ok…onli one ting…it’s actually rather sad to watch CSI cos u would then noe tat the world is really very much disturbed n full of sin…it’s so disturbing to see ppl comitting crimes like rape, killings, psychos (also found in the show Criminal Minds) etc…n i tink the way the crime lab works in the darkness means sthg…(i believe it’s more than just not turning on the light)…like the world is really in darkness now…Jesus’ light needs to shine thru…

it’s no longer simply doing good tings…or not doing bad tings tat spare ur eternal life…it’s ur confession of ur sins…knowin tat Jesus is ur Savior……

enjoy CSI for the show…but don’t 4get tat the ideas come frm real life situations…if u tink the crimes r done by sick ppl (both in mind n body)…u better believe tat there r sick ppl in our world…but most imptly…pray for these ppl…let the hand of God led them back into the light…

Le CSI rocks…so does gelato…n i tink some other stuff…

I’m back on CSI…possibly becos i ran short of tings to watch on tv…so i’m rewatching seasons 5 n 4…season 4 is driving me nuts cos many a episode cannot be played…n it’s definitely not my dvd player’s fault…if it can handle the tons of K-dramas on my mom’s…CSI should not be a prob…

y CSI rocks: …not becos of the dead bodies…but becos of the terms…n the way each criminal carries out the “perfect crime”…alot of medical terms r used…n many i have heard thru my physiology course in yr 1…so u tend to understand much more than any average Annie…i’m pickin up short forms like T.O.D…R.O…C.O.D…many more…sounds like fun XD…

it may be like a fad ting but i kinda hope to work in a crime lab…however, some dreams should stay dreams…since i figured tat it may not be all tat fun as one sees it in the show (since S’pore does not have such tech in the first place…i would need to work in USA then)…n the dead bodies can get creepy at times (though i’ve been with cadavers…tat means dead bodies…for almost a sem)…n maggots make me sick……i can name plenty more…but u get the picture…anw, forensics is still interesting to me…love to visit the office once…

i tink i’m hook on gelato…cheap gelato, i guess (i’m not exactly rich since pkt $$ is running low)… my fren tells me it’s ice cream without the guilt of putting on weight…did a check online…basically it’s ice cream without the cream…they use a freezing method to make the stuff…though without the cream, the flavours n sugar still counts…but i still like it…it does not leave a sweet aftertaste in ur mouth like most other ice-creams do…i kinda like the flavour Belgium choco…though it taste exactly like norm choco…but i boycott it since it stain one of my fav shirts…darn…i loved tat shirt…anw…won’t be hving any for the next few mths…need to do cut-backs…

even though God has not given it to me as yet (yes, i’m still prayin for it)…i’m still kinda excited to study jap again tis sem…though i seem to have forgotten how to intro my faculty n specialty (name still can intro)…so i prob stress on the first day of sch…but my uncle had suggested tat i take french n german as well….n i cannot deny the usefulness of the latter 2 r more applicable than jap in the pharm-life…but wat’s wat…n how’s how…confusing…will try to learn new languages if possible…i like breaking lang. barriers…though i cannot say the same for dialect (can’t seem to get it right)…

still thnk the Lord, cos he gave me great ears…tat even though i’m bad w dialect…He lets me understand it quickly by listening…not all the time…but i’m still happy …Jesus conquered the grave…i’m conquering lang. barriers…at least trying…. XD